35 long years ago yet the memories are like yesterday. It’s been a year since I posted this and I swear it never gets easier. I’ve dreamt about Bill many times and in one he told me to release myself from my feelings of loss, guilt and many other emotions.
So what I’m going to do is mention a few funny and maybe not so funny memories I have. Maybe this is what my therapists meant. 

I remember we were having an AW picnic over near the carrier pier and Bill went in the port-a-let and a few guys shook the hell out of it and an instant later, the door crashes open and Bill comes flying out, chasing whoever he could see. That was the fastest I ever saw him run.
He always wanted to get a fuchsia colored turtleneck so he could wear it under his flight suit and he finally found one but never wore it because he said it didn’t look as good as he thought it would.
We were both so poor when we lived in our apartment that we would get creative with our cooking. One thing that has stayed as one of my comfort foods is Mac & cheese mixed with ground beef. That was a staple in our place and it’s still something I make to this day.
Never forget but live the way to honor.